DAY 137,, PLAYING HOOKIE AND GETTING A BONUS DAY TOO,,,,,

Today I played hookie and then got a call that mom was ready to be picked up,,, My first thought was oh man there goes my hookie day.. but after going and getting her and picking her new drugs up and getting her settled I got a phone call.... my super.. well seems that my guy Mr. Bill has a doc appt in the morning and then his daughter is planning to take him some place else too SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SHE SAID JUST GO AHEAD AND STAY HOME ANOTHER DAY!!!!!!! WOO HOO BABY you bet your you know what I will.... SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO then I am told tonight that Fawn will not be here in the morning to take the girls to school... that means I HAVE TO,,, then she is done with her PT and we have to take all the papers to the insurance company so they can settle her claim... yeah me again.... SOOOOOOOOOOOOO today when I picked up Sandy from work I went into Marshals and bought me 2 new pans,,,,,, I will let ya know how I like them. They are by some cook Wolf guy,, Stainless Steel.. I am so tired of those stupid Teflon crappy things... so I will try these they cost me enough they better be good OR HE WILL HEAR FROM ME HIS SELF.... ok I think that is all I got to blab about. Mom is home she is good,,, I have remembered that I will need to keep this job so that when it is time to take care of her..... I CAN AFFORD TO HIRE SOMEONE,,, God I love her but I will kill her pickyness,,,,,ok guys night off to bed,,, I will take a picture of my new pans in the morning I am lazy bye.

SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH,,,,

I AM PLAYING HOOKIE DON'T TELL ANYONE OK,,,,,,, I am just too stinking stressed to go to work. My one kid stressed me to the max last night,, then this mornign as I was getting ready for work another one did then to top that one off yet ANOTHER KID GOT IN MY FACE,,,, so on the way to work I started to feel reallllly sick to my stomach,,, like big time so I turned my car around ang came back home and let my boss know I am not going to work today, TO BAD HUH,,,,, I took a tylenol and am eating a few tums I puked when I got home so I ma destressing as I write,,, so I stopped my Nan's and got this,,,,,



ONE WORD ONLY!

Not as easy as you might think. Now copy, forward, or post this and change the answers to yours and pass it on. It’s really hard to only use one word answers.

1. Where is your cell phone? ………….. coffee table

2. Your significant other?………………….. work

3. Your hair? …………………………………….. straight

4. Your mother? ……………………………….. in hospital

5. Your father?…………………………………….. in Heaven

6. Your favorite thing?……………………….. family

7. Your dream last night?………………….. forgot

8. Your favorite drink? ……………………….. pepsi

9. Your dream/goal?………………………….. happiness

10. The room you’re in?…………………….. computer

11. Your ex?……………………………………….. Michigan

12. Your fear?…………………………………….. alone

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?…….. family

14. Where were you last night?………….. mom's

15. What you’re not?………………………….. skinny

16. Muffins?……………………………………….. banana

17. One of your wish list items?………….. sewingroom

18. Where you grew up?…………………….. Michigan

19. The last thing you did?………………….. hooky

20. What are you wearing?………………….. shorts

21. Your TV?……………………………………….. dusty

22. Your pets?…………………………………….. none

23. Your computer? …………………………….. old

24. Your life?……………………………………….. drama

25. Your mood?………………………………….. stressed

26. Missing someone?……………………….. daddy

27. Your car?……………………………………….. jeep

28. Something you’re not wearing?…….. shoes

29. Favorite Store?……………………………….. walmart

30. Your summer?……………………………….. HOT

31. Like(love) someone?…………………………….. Mike

32. Your favorite color?……………………….. pink

33. Last time you laughed?……………….. forget

34. Last time you cried?……………………….. today

35. Who will re-post this?…………………….. ?

OK, that was hard, I want to explain a lot of it, but in one word, it's not allowed so you'll just have to ask if you are interested in any of the answers. ;)



OK mom called they are letting her go so good thing I am home huh see ya

DAY 136,,WHAT A DAY,,,,

Mom is still in the hospital and is now allowed to go potty on her own. She thinks they are going to let her out morro BUT we will see. It is up to the kidney doc now. Her heart is stable it is the kidneys,,,, She has heart and lung and kidney dieses ,,, so she is doing pretty with all that. I let my boss know that I will be leaving an hour earlier from now on... when I left the message and then went ot he office for a couple things she saw me and layed the whole,"CAN YOU GO IN EARLIER SO WE CAN KEEP THE HOURS" boss company thing ya know... I just told her I am lessening my hours so I do not kill myself taking care of 3 houses and IF it comes to that then her's would be the first to go. OH SHE GOT IT,,, See now that I have done this for real and got paid for it,,, I so know I could do this on my own and make a lot more money then I am now so I have no fear and she knows that too. I talked to Bill's daughter and they are looking to move him to Cali into an assisted living place anyway and,,, AND when I signed on with this job I was looking for a few hours in the evening,, like 20 hours a week I am working 36 now. ANYWAY,,,,, I will be going to moms more to check on her and do more for her so I plan to do what I need to do.

OK thank you all so much for Fawn's happy Bday she was thrilled did you see her comment to you all?

It was 109 today,,,,, yes right now it is 10:37 and it is still 99 outside... I am not ready for summer people. Thursday it is suppose to cool down a bit I so hope so Fawn graduates and it is OUTSIDE!!!!!! I will be wearing something very light weight.

I think that is it I got no more,,, I am dead tired and do not look forward to summer my kids out of school and the heat... but I will be at work for the most part and then they will be in the evening so that will help I HOPE.... OK bingo tomorrow I did not win last week... SHEILA COMES IN 3 DAYS!!!!!! FRIDAY MORNING AT
10:30ISH,,,, MAYBE GET TATTOS HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA ok I am off to try and catch up with you guys now,,, OH MY GOSH GO SEE JUST A MOM JAN,,,, SHE IS UMMM WELL PREGNANT,,, YES GO SEE she is on my side bar I am lazy... ok see ya enjoy your week

DAY 135,,,HHHUUUMMMMM 19 YEARS.......

TODAY 19 YEARS AGO I had no clue how this day would change my life.... I had no clue that one little baby girl being born would have so much to do with what my life is like today. You see my daughter Fawn was born on this day May 19th,,,19 YES IT IS HER GOLDEN birthday 19 years ago. She was born a poor white girl ok enough on that... but she WAS born to a mother who would never take her home to live with her. Fawn as taken into state custody with in an hour of being born. She stayed in the hospital under security when her birth mother was let go... She then went to live with Christian family foster parents,,,, She was only there for a short time and that foster mother hurt her back and had to let all of her children go. We on the other hand were having to let go our 2nd foster child because she had way too many problems. With in 2 weeks of letting out first Mandy go and feeling so empty we got a phone call about a 5 week old little girl who needed a home. She came to us that day and was such a sweet little thing. Everyone fell in love with her right away. We thought this little girl would surely be either returning to her birth mom or go to an adoptive home some other home. It turned out that for the next 10 years this little girls would have to go through so many traumatizing things,,, and WE as her acting parents would be the saving grace in her life. She slept in our bed on top of ME for 4 and 1/2 years,,, it started with night terrors and so we moved her crib next to our bed and I could sooth her with my hand through the bars,,,,, then the side came off the crib so she could roll into mommy,,,, then she got too big for the crib and we added a twin bed next to our queen one... we later paid her a quarter to wake in her own bed but having a blanket and pillow next to me on the floor of our bedroom comforted her enough. This little girls ho needed to have me with her at every moment started kindergarten a year late because of this need is tomorrow turning 19 years old and on Thursday will be graduating high school. WOW how she has changed MY life.... and how much she has grown into such a great young lady. She is honest... she is loyal... she is full of heart,,,she is a best friend.... she is funny,,,, she is some times not funny enough,,,, she is hard working,,,, she is one of a kind.... My 3rd daughter Fawn Elizabeth,,,,,,, Happy Birthday kid thanks for choosing us as your parents,, well ok so God chose us but you could have not wanted to stay... I hope I have been a pretty good mom.... I hope you have a great day.
Here she is with Amy when she was very little,,,

Then she was like 4 and sweeter...

and NOW look at that smile and you can see personality in her eyes

DAY 134 WHY AM I STILL UP???? I DO NOT KNOW BUT,,,,,

P.S. I LOVE YOU ,,,,, DAMN MY EYES HURT,,, AND MY NOSE IS STUFFY,,, AND MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN... That movie was too good have ya seen it? P.S. I LOVE YOU ,,,ya gotta rent it.... ok no news on mom it is late.... I still need to clean morro ,,, Fawn is planning her own graduation/birthday party for next Saturday. She will be 19 Monday... yeah now THAT ONE is a heart tugger down memory lane..... She was 5 weeks when we got her but I will write bout that tomorrow night for Monday,,,,, So I hope your weekend is going well like I said my eyes are killing me. I need to remember to stop by mom's before I go up,,, her inhaler...gram crackers... and damn I forgot the other thing.. oh well..... I will up date ya it is 1AM see ya

STILL NOT SURE,,,,,,

FIRST I AM SURE I AM BUTT TIRED,,,, but with mom they are not sure yet for sure what is up... they think she may have had another heart attack. Her heart is enlarged and there is fluid around it.. so they are looking at congestive heart failure ALONE with bringing in a kidney doc. She is in total bed rest.. she even has to pee on a bed pan. Poor thing she is sleeping all the time. I only popped in and I mean popped in the ICU where she is for a couple minuets and then she was even almost falling asleep... Her blood pressure is finely up a bit. It had been like 98/?? and 102/?? and her heart rate was only between 38 and 47 tops. She does have a temp too so they are keeping her in he ICU until they get her stable or figure out what is up. They said a couple days. Keep thinking of her I will keep ya updated.....

DAY 133,,,, IT IS 2 AM WHY AM I STILL UP??????

MOM IS IN THE HOSPITAL AGAIN,,, this time they believe it is her heart... Congestive heart failure yeah and some signs of a heart attack,,, yeah and something to do with some kind of blood tests that came back with some kind of levels being not right???? not sure on that one... BUT they want to have her in constant watch in the ICU,,, but no beds there... so she is still in the ER in a private and cozy room where they pulled a regular bed in for her ot sleep in and warm blankets. She is NOT allowed to walk to the potty either,,,, PRAY PLEASE


THEN WHAT THE HELL GOD!!!!!!!!!! a girl that lives in my mom's old apartment complex was here,,, with her little girl well she is now 13,,, and is being a little beotch to her family you know the whole teen crap. ANYWAY this poor family started out with dysfunction from the get go but little Patty I just loved her so sweet.. anyway she remembered me from 8 years ago and ran up to me and gave me a hug. They are waiting for a bed in the children's ward in another hosp to have her evaluated,,, she said the chain and ball words " I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF" so she is pretty much on lock down. SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I talked to them a bit before I left and ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, YES GAVE THEM MY NUMBER...... why I do not know BUT if God put them in that place at that time so that I run into them ,,,,WHO AM I TO ARGURE???? SO pray for them too,,, mom needs to have some kind of support in her life and there is NONE..... ok so please pray that I also GET MY HOUSE CLEANED,,, I planed on cleaning my ass off all weekend yes I said God and Ass in the same post get over it,,,, anyway I need to clean my house this weekend because I will be busting my hump all week with stuff before Sheila comes... Fawn graduates on Thursday and the days before that well I will be tired ok,,,, and NOW taking care of mom so SHEILA my house is a pit hole come join in ,,, oh wait you know me already huh hahhhahaha OK I am goign ot bed now it is 2:15 AM have a great day will ya nite

WAIT DID I MISS SOMETHING OR,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

AM I JUST GETTING OLD AND I FORGOT,,,,


JODI FOSTER IS GAY?????? DID I KNOW THAT?? HUH AFTER 14 YEARS SHE HAS BROKEN UP WITH HER GIRLFRIEND AND THEY HAVE 2 ADOPTED KIDS... RELLY DID I KNOW THIS ? AND I FORGOT? Not that I really care really I don't care about he "FACT" just the not knowing or forgetting,,,,, well good luck to ya Jodi anyway I just love her... Damn I am getting old huh what else has been going on around me and I had no clue?

DAY 132,, GLAD IT IS FRIDAY,,,,,

I AM SO STINKING TIRED. I am up only because I wait for 2 girls to get home. One is a work the other is at a concert. I am so tired,,,, I think I just might sleep all day Saturday... well ok I do have to clean big time and I will tell my girls I will kick their butts if they do not keep the house some what clean next week. ok really I am dead so you have a great last day of the week.... nite.

DAY 131,,,OH I AM IN TROUBLE,,,,,,

ALREADY I AM IN TROUBLE,,, A BABY GIRL,,,,,STORES,,,,A JOB,,,, FREE TIME,,, PINK FRILLY STUFF,,,, GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!


I still have 4 months to go,,, it is going to be so hard to keep out of trouble with this "STUFF" in my face. Do these people already know that I am a sick person,,, have they all plotted to set PINK,,, FLUFFY,,,CUTE,, things near the isles?


DAMN THEM!!!!!!



I went to pick Sandy my baby daughter up from work...... at ,,,,,,, the,,,,,,,, MALL OK!!!! I saw the Ross store and thought "oh I can kill a half an hour in there " WRONG VERY WRONG IDEA,, although I did pretty good I have to say. I only bought 2 cute pink sweet tiny pair of PJ's.... and.............. a photo book with Pink lace and bows,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, a tiny soft sweet pink blankie.. with flowers and butterfly's on it. DAMN I AM IN TROUBLE I JUST KNOW IT!!!! Wonder how many hours I can work in a day,,,, a week... a month,,,,, IN THE NEXT 4 MONTHS!????



ok ok ok ok enough whining... it is going to be so hard though. oh yeah IF ya want to check out Amy and Aaron and baby A's registry it is a BABY R US,,, here is the link,,,, Babies"R"Us - Baby Registry


OK ENOUGH NEXT,,, My mom these days,, Yes I have still be talking to her it is good... she is not so good. See she is having a hard time breathing as usual BUT they are saying it is ,,, weird here,, the hyadle (?spell lazy)hernia,, yes she has one too WAY BIG is causing her Kidneys to spit out WAY too much acid and THAT is causing the oxygen to NOT be going into her lungs like it should. She has to suck in into them kinda.... So they have her on 2 meds now and hoping it will fix.. in the mean time she is doing or trying to do her life. She set up another bus trip to the north for today,,, the last week has been pretty tough BUT she went anyway,,,,, I got a call from her about 6:30ish,,, she said...."I NEED A FAVOR,,,,,WILL YOU GO BUY ME SOME BLACKBERRY BRANDY" yeah the only thing that seems to help with her breathing no it is not good for the hernia but it works ok,,, So off I went and sat with her for a bit and turned her air down a bit.. it was flipping 82 in her house,,, I will pay it ok.... oh wait THAT will help with not buying PINK HUH,,,, ok So after about an hour with that and her oxygen on her nose she is a bit better as long as she did NOTHING... so prayers could be used here... She is an English ole bird and just will not sit still.... IF you are English you will understand,,,, So ok for now... I am off to get ready to go to bed,, relax ,,wait for Fawn to get home and off I go. I got work in the morning and we get to take the big dogs to the lady for a shampoo and haircut,, I will take pictures BIG ASS DOGS!!!!!! so that will be my day,,, that and working on getting Bill to take his meds right,,, a fight to the end with that one. SOOOOOO almost time for my LONGEST BEST FRIEND TO COME PLAY.. next Friday,,, I am getting excited!!!!!!!!! not sure what we will do but mom said ot go stay by her house and use the pool and the exercise room all we want we need to run away,,, just might do that. So happy Thursday,,,, what is new with you I will try and make it to your place promise.... BYE